When my heart speaks..

I wish that i could touch that face.. 
And see right through that eyes.. 
Listen to that voice every night.. 
So that i can sleep tight.. 

The day that i'll never forget.. 
When you touch my hands and give me your sweetest smile.. 
That once i neglect.. 
But now i realize one thing.. 
The decision that kills me day by day.. 
Started this self-war.. 
That no one knows.. 

Every time i see that name appears, the lightning strikes me.. 
Everything becomes so dark, blurs all the edges.. 
But this heart beats faster and faster.. 
What all these means? 

One thing that that i learned.. 
Never expect.. 
To God i leave notes.. 
The only One that i can talk with.. 
Shall i give up or moving on? 
I just let Him lead my path..

It's been awhile...

I don't exactly what i want to jot down here.. Well, i love writing once upon a time ..i spent so much time for my own..i wrote so many short stories, poems but i forgot where did i put all my collections. Maybe my mommy had burnt them all! wuuu~ I put some of my poems and short stories that i'd created here..sayau mai ku enda engkah semua!! arrgghh!..keluar dah jaku iban..hahaha..but now i'm lacked of idea. This year is the busiest year that i have ever had. So much things happened. It has been almost 6 years i spend my life in a city that takes more than hundred km from my hometown. I have learned so much things in this life. Being independent started from 18 years old. I learn how to face people, problems, works, studies and any situations. The ups and downs moments, the laughs and tears taught me a lot until i become stronger each day. Stand and face the unknown!!

Music and Soul...

Stop saying my name if your lips hard to do so..

Stop holding my hand as it never give you warmth..

Stop this masquerade cos i'm gonna lose this mask.



I can't follow your rhythm,

I can't follow your beat,

This steps would be easier if i just running on my own track.



Sounds of the midnight rain..

The most wonderful music that gives inspiration.

Million of stars..

The most amazing view that give bliss..

To a tiny heart of mine.


Created by me,
15:19
22.10.2011

Shall she count all the pills?

'She' is my mom... uugghh..i'm feeling strong enough to walk and do all the cleaning things at home but she always update all my pills.. OMG~ I'm wondering..when will i be stopped swallowing them..hmm.. i hate medicines..

**that picture is not my real pills..LOL! don't get confused~

DIFFERENCE BETWEEN "SOMEBODY U LOVE" & SOMEBODY U LIKE"

In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster .
But in front of the person you like, you'll get happy.

In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring .
But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush .
But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile.

In front of the person you love, you can't say everything on your mind .
But in front of the person you like, you can.

In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy.
But in front of the person you like, you can show your own self.

You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love.
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like.

When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.

But...
If u try to close your eyes,love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart...

••. Whisperer Quotes .••.

sorry guys!

Sorry for being silent for several weeks.. Just discharged from the hospital..my doc said "you have to finish these meds, have more rest and drink a lot of plain water...bla..bla..bla". Yesterday, i've finished all my meds but still i don't feel better but worse..hmm.. My mum drove me to the clinic nearby today to get my meds. My weight drop extremely...i'm so sad.. Just to get a glass of water from the kitchen is a trouble for me to walk...ugghh~ My world can be so dark anytime..

Back to my last week...i even can't sleep..almost think about suicide! (Maybe this is how Micheal Jackson's feeling). I don't know what are the things that can make me sleep and rest...lastly, i took a painkiller (just to try if it works). Yes! it did! I can sleep 'til 10am... Waking up that morning, still i didn't feel better..

Thank God for this sickness as i know that You want me to better take care of myself. By the way, i try to be strong in facing this... whether it can be cure or not, i put it on Your hands God. Thanks coz You teach me a lot..i know You love me and i miss Your hug and that kiss on my forehead.. I hope tonight i can meet you once more.. =D

Tips on strengthening your relationship with your significant other BY Mac Engel

Starting a relationship is relatively easy. Keeping it healthy and strong, though, requires effort. "Who trains you for relationships?" Dr. Margie McKeon of Dallas asks. "How many people are really prepared for a serious relationship?""One of the very essential things I focus on is just listening," Miller says. "We are so busy thinking of what we are going to say that we don’t hear what the other person is saying. If you just listen, it can make a major difference in a person’s day."These relationship experts agree that if you follow one, two or more of these suggestions each day, it can help deepen the bond that you have with your significant other.

1. Listen. This is one of the hardest things to do in any relationship, "You have to really force yourself to not retort or interject anything when the other person is talking," Miller says. "This may take years of practice."

2. Validate the other person. "Validating means if you understand where they are coming from; if you know their world makes sense," McKeon says. "It’s a critical element." Try to understand how the person views life, or at the very least, how they may view a particular situation. Step into their shoes, if you will, and see things from their perspective.

3. Remember: There are no winners. This extends the idea above, and comes in handy when conflict arises. "When couples fight, the need to be right or to win is so great it hurts the relationship," McKeon says. "Couples have to get past right and wrong. Listen to the other person’s world — that helps you get beyond right and wrong."

4. Don’t personalize it. "If the person is mad, it’s not necessarily about you," Behannon says. "You can’t make their pain or disappointment your fault." If you feel like maybe you are being the scapegoat for their anger, help them to figure out what the true source of their pain is.

5. Schedule date nights. An oldie but goodie and easily forgotten. "People have to plan time for themselves and rediscover the reason they are together," Miller says.

6. It’s the tiny details. Surprise your significant other with something that shows you’re thinking about him or her. "Maybe it’s something as simple as a flower on a pillow, a hand-written note that indicates 'I am thinking about you,’ " Miller says.

7. Don’t be the source of the other person’s pain. Behannon says, "You never want to be the reason why the person you love hurts."

8. Time alone. "The other person needs to have their own things they do, that are separate from their spouse," Miller says. "This is vital." Having your own activities provides an outlet for growth in other areas. Time away also acts as a way to recharge your batteries.

9. Set boundaries. When having one of those "tough discussions," it’s important to establish areas where the conversation should go and where it shouldn’t, and perhaps even set a time limit. "Maybe this means the other person wants to wait before talking," Behannon says. "Or there are certain subjects that aren’t going to be brought up. Or the conversation will only last this long."

10. Be careful when you say "sorry." "There is an appropriate time to say this," McKeon says. "If the person starts saying 'sorry’ for everything, then they may be taking responsibility for the other person’s emotions when they shouldn’t." If one person is upset because the car has a flat tire after running over a nail, the other person has no need to offer an apology. The person apologizing has no need to say they are sorry for anything.

11. Maintain eye contact. "Don’t read or play on the computer when the other person is trying to talk to you," Miller says. "Look at the other person."

12. Forget "You." "One of the first things I focus on when communicating about the hard stuff is to drop the 'You this’ or 'You that,’" Behannon says. "They need to be 'I’ statements."

13. Keep your body language engaged. "There are physical cues our body gives away that can be louder than verbal ones," Behannon says. "You have to be mindful of what your body is saying." Slouching, folded arms, hands on hips or the rolling eyes can all be loud body language that suggests the person isn’t really engaged in a productive manner.

14. Mind PMS. "When you make a request of your partner," McKeon says, "it has to be Positive. Measurable. Specific." No need to scream or yell; just politely ask for what you want, and avoid generalities.

15. Speak their language. Don’t do something that you think you would like to do, do something they would like. Your language may say washing your partner’s car and filling it up with gas is romantic and nice, but their language may say that a bouquet of flowers and a card are better.

16. Watch your tone. If one person in the relationship has a "maximizer" tone and the other is a "minimizer," it can create conflict and make people defensive. "If you use negative tones, people get defensive," McKeon says. "You have to be conscious of what you are putting into the sacred space and each person has to take responsibility for that."

17. Schedule family time. "When you have a child, family time is the easiest thing, because that’s the one you do the most often," Miller says. "But it’s about quality family time where there is interaction and discussion."

18. Get beyond your defenses. "If I feel attacked, I go into defense," McKeon says. "If that happens, we’re not relating, and I’m too busy protecting to receive your message."

19. Listen to a problem but don’t try to fix it. Most women feel that if you are listening to them, it validates what they’ve said, McKeon says. "If you can listen and validate and empathize, it encourages autonomy. They want you to process their feelings with them — not run in and fix them. If you process their feelings, they exercise their own autonomy. If you fix a problem, it limits their autonomy." Translation: Being someone’s "toolbox" may only prevent the other person from learning how to solve the problem on their own.

20. Choose peace. "When you’re having any kind of conflict what I suggest to people is in your head say over and over, 'I choose peace rather than this,’ " Behannon says. "What that means to me is I can respond in a more peaceful way that keeps me from getting angry."

21. Be open-minded. "You can’t overtax the brain; changes are slow and gradual," McKeon says. "And the more open-minded you are, the greater the chance for growth and for real healing."

22. Observe the golden rule. "It’s such an obvious one," Behannon says. "Treat your partner the way you want to be treated."


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