At 3.02am, October 1st 2009...
i suddenly woke up, knelt down on my bed and cried so badly.."Lord, please forgive me..I know that i've got too much sins. I'm not supposed to be Ur child but why do U still hold my hand, hug and kiss me?? What do U want from me? What do U want me to do? What r the meaning for all these??" I kept crying in my prayer. "If this is not a dream, please give me the answer. Berbicaralah dgn hambaMu ini...i'm not satisfied with all my dreams b4. I'm not satisfied doing everything in my own way without U to guide me. Now, God...i'm ready to be Ur servant..in the name of Jesus Christ, I've prayed..amen."
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I was walking back from my church in my hometown 1 sunday. I was not directed to my home..i was just kept following my foot steps while holding my Bible. Then, i arrived in a hotel. I don't know why i entered the unidentified place but it seemed like i really common with it. I was staying in that hotel and i don't know why i was there. When i was checking in, I realized something weird at the lift and saw my high school teacher inside kept staring at me. Why did she act like that? feeling confusing for a while~~~
Suddenly, i felt that the hotel was jarred. I could feel that the building was wanted to collapse so i rushed out from the place. Several steps after getting out, i realized that all the buildings in front of my eyes were burnt out in a blink of an eye 1 by 1. I stared at the sky and saw the sky was opened so widely and the fire that i've never seen before came down and burnt all of the things including the buildings, cars, houses and even people who were standing exactly under the great sky. I saw everything was totally damaged in front of me terribly. The sounds of painful,, cries were everywhere. I started run with all of my strength, closing my eyes to runaway from the opened flame sky and...suddenly....i entered a mysterious place. Everything was dark and gloomy. Where am i???
A bright light suddenly appeared and I saw 3 men with white and shining robes slowly walked towards me. 1 of them with short and curl hair smiled at me. Another person suddenly became haze and lighten the atmosphere, then disappeared. The 3rd man came to me and stood in front of me. I can't see His face clearly because of the great light on His face. "Who are these people??" I asked myself. Suddenly...a great voice and i didn't know where did it come from said this to me, "The 1st man is Saint Paul, next is the Father God also Holy Spirit that's why u saw Him different from the 2 men. The last 1 is Jesus Christ." I was still blurred that time. I didn't trust the things in front of me. "This is a dream. Just continue what will happen next," my heart said proudly.
I saw the Man that called "Jesus Christ" talking with 1 of my girl friend that closes to me and i'm not sure which 1 of them though. I saw They talked and laughed together from behind. I could see the happiness on my friend's face and the peaceful on the Man's face. I was feeling curious. "Who is that Man? Jesus Christ was dead..so who is this guy?" my heart kept asking but I still didn't find the answer. Then suddenly, the voice came again. "Mengapa kamu mencari Dia yang hidup, di antara orang mati? (Luke 24:5). Go and get Him..that's really Him, my Son." My tears rolled uncontrollable, feeling regret. I walked slowly, sat about a meter from Him..listening to the story about heaven, the life in heaven (peaceful, bliss, no sadness, no worries, no wars..etc). Attracted with His story and His characteristics (humble, full with love, kind..etc), i said to Him, "can i sit with U?" He answered me with a conciliate smile, "yes, u may. Come and sit here." He gave His hand to me and put His right hand on my shoulder as He did with my friend. He teached me a lot. "Your parents love u so much. It depends on u right now how to appreciate them and make them happy. Please be a good daughter. Be more patient with all of the tests. Satan will be happy if u stumble and fall to a dark world. Pray a lot and listen to God's words. See that...." He pointed St. Paul which were praying for an old man with hunch on his left shoulder. I saw St. Paul put his right hand on the hunch and pray in the name of Jesus, the old man totally recovered. "That's how u pray for others. Put ur hand on them and say ur prayer with faith and trust in the power of God. The Holy Spirit will fulfill and always go with u. Pray for everybody." He added and gave me the conciliate smile again. I shook my head as a sign of understand.
"Let's walk at the beach," Jesus Christ invited both of us. It was almost sunset. He hold our hands and walked along the shore. We talked and laughed until late evening. "It's late now. Remember Vic, the sight that u had seen at first was the sign of the end of the world. Pray a lot...save more people. Please remember all the things that I've said. Don't ever give up trusting God. U must win the race. I'm waiting for u. I love both of u. Please don't disappoint me."
"Please bring me along with U, Lord Jesus. I want to live with U. I don't want to stay in this world." I started to cry. I grabbed His robe. I couldn't feel my legs and felt suddenly. My hands still grabbed his robe. Jesus Christ sat and hold my shoulders. He kissed me on my forehead. "This time is not for u to follow me my dear. Save more people. I'll be back. Get ready for that day. I'll come again and make sure that u follow and stay with me on that day." I can't controlled myself anymore when Jesus Christ and St. Paul disappeared to the sky.
I cried and cried...bcause i really want to follow Him. My friend consoled me~~~ I stared at the red + orange sky with full of happiness in myself eventhough my tears couldn't stop to drop.
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I wake up at 3.02am...with tears. I'd cried so badly...||back to the 1st para||
I think this is not just a dream because until now i still can feel the circumstance. Now, i trust my Lord Jesus more and i really missed the moment i talked and walked with Him. I've never felt so much bliss in my heart. Thanks Lord for coming to my life. I'm one of His disciple now..and I'm happy with it.
Hallelujah...segala pujian dan kemuliaan hanya bagiMu Tuhan.
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